New Years Resolution..

Usually this time of year, I am making that New Year's Resolution that I am going to lose weight and get healthy and that last about a day until we decide to order pizza on New Years Day.  This year my New Years Resolution is to Keep Moving Forward.  That means keep doing what I am doing and making the changes that I am making a permanent part of my life.  I have started the changes over the last 2 months and I have seen results.  Now it is just a matter of realizing that this change is a constant marathon.  Even when I lose all the weight and I have ran the 5K that I made as a goal, I am still going to have to be vigilant about what I eat and how I fuel my body.  I know that putting on the weight is so much easier that taking it off. 

This journey is not about fitting in a dress or getting skinny for an event, but is about finding the healthy me and letting her out for rest of my life and never again allowing myself to fall back into the unhealthy lifestyle.  I deserve this change and I deserve to be able to be proud of myself.  I deserve to put my health first and foremost in my life.  I want to be able to go out and know that I am presenting the real me.  It is about letting go of of that overweight shell and allowing the healthy me shine. 

I am sure that on this marathon of life, there will be times that I stumble over and obstacle or find a road block in my path, but the important part is that I find away around the roadblock and get back up when I stumble.  I do not have to win this race by being the fastest to meet my goal, but instead winning for me will be the fact that I never give up and keep going for the rest of my life. 

So here is the food update, I had a smoothie for breakfast, a turkey sandwich for lunch.  I have not planned dinner yet. but I will make a healthy choice. 

Happy New Years Everyone!!!

Take Care tonight and stay safe...catch you in 2012!!!

Weigh in day

So I weighed in on Friday due to the the holidays again and lost another 4 pounds.  That is right a pound away from 60!!!  I am so happy, I am taking things one week at time and the goal is for the scale to go down every week. 

I am sorry I did not bog last night, but it was date night and F and I saw The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.  I have never read the book, but the movie was slow moving...I have to say I enjoy any movie with Daniel Craig. 

Yesterday, I had a smoothie from breakfast, a Kashi bar for lunch, and turkey for dinner.  Then I went out had had fun..

Today I had a turkey sandwich for breakfast.  Why?  Well one I did not have the fruit for the smoothie and no milk for cereal so I just tried to find something healthy!  C has a performance for a camp that she has been in, so I get to see my little girl dance which always makes me happy. Then we have plans to go out to dinner with friends, so I am planning on eating before the performance and just have a salad at dinner.

Time for me to get to work.

Talk to you later...

Thank you Honey!!

F and C got me a smoothie maker for Christmas and today was the first day I had to use it.  It made my smoothie in a quarter of the time and it was very well blended and the clean up is much easier.  Thank you honey.

So since I started with a smoothie, I decided to do an unprocessed food day. Strawberry banana smoothie for lunch,  salad for lunch.  Chicken breast and veggies for dinner. 

So work is busy, but I am home which is always a bonus. 

I am planning on doing a little clothes shopping this weekend.  I am also going to try and get a spa appointment.  I have to weigh in on Friday because of the New Years Holiday. 

Take Care...talk to you later

My jeans......

So I have a pair of jeans that used to be tight...now they are so baggy in the butt that they are sagging..it is not attractive.  I need to go shopping for some new clothes, but I do not want to buy a new wardrobe that often.

I had a pretty good day as far as food goes.  I had some turkey and stuffing for breakfast.  That really kept me full all day.  I had a salad and turkey and stuffing for dinner. An okay day not the best.  I am need to stop and buy some frozen strawberries for a smoothie tomorrow.  I am missing them


I found a really cool picture of what 5 punds of fat looks like and I am just thinking that if I take that picture and mulitply it by 11 that equals that fat I have loss.  It was a great visualization.

Take care all...

Day off...Wow I I don't remember what that is like.

I was off from work today though I am on call so I am not really off..but okay I digress.  Today was a weird day.  I slept in, so I was not really hungry until around noon.  I had a turkey sandwich and double fiber whole wheat bread.  Dinner was a cup of stuffing from yesterday and some turkey.  F and I are getting ready to go out tonight, so I am planning on making sure there is a Kashi bar in my purse just in case.

F was home all day, so it was a really laid back day.  I can not wait to try out the smoothie maker that F got me for Christmas.  I am planning on picking some fruit up at the store tomorrow so I can try it out.

Talk to you later...take care.

Christmas dinner is done and Yeah the worse of the holidays is over..

So the morning started early with presents to open.  Christmas has been a great day.  I made F and C breakfast of eggs, bacon and toast.  I had a banana and celery.  Yeah not a typical breakfast I know... Lunch was some stuffing, I had to taste it to make sure the seasoning was right. I made it very low fat, skipping the butter in the recipe all together, so I decided to make it lunch rather than extra calories...Dinner was turkey, some mashed potatoes (mine without the added butter) a little stuffing, and Turkey.  I made one small plate and that was it no seconds and no over loaded plate.  I could not even finish the whole plate.  I left some stuffing and turkey still on the plate. I do not feel stuffed and tired.  I have fed my body and it told me when it had enough.  There is going to be tons of leftovers, but that should keep the family fed for the next week between the ham and turkey and all the side dishes. 

I am technically off tomorrow, but I am on call so that means I am never off..my goal the rest of the week is just to do what I have been doing and add in some exercise.

I hope every one had a Merry Christmas!!

Talk to you later...Take care and be healthy!

Christmas Eve....I just want to make it through the holidays..

So today is Christmas Eve and I am just trying to make it through the holidays.  I started out the day having a nice smoothie.  Lunch is a kashi bar and some V-8 juice. F and C are heading out to pick up the Christmas Eve dinner for them..a ham.  Plans for tomorrow are turkey and ham, mashed potatoes, stuffing, green beans, and rolls...I will be making them as healthy as possible.  Then it is just a matter of making the right choices..

I am home next week and have monday off, so that should be a nice week, but wee will see..

I am so happy to have blown away my Christmas goal by losing 55 pounds by Christmas.   Yesterday, we went to a Warm Drink party and it was fun hanging out with friends. 

So Merry Christmas and Frohe Weihnachten. 

Talk to you later...

Weigh in a day early

Due to Christmas Eve being tomorrow, I had to weigh in a day early....I lost 3.5 pounds this week and that added to the 51.5 total from last week means I have lost 55 pounds before Christmas.  Merry Christmas to me.  I just have to make through Christmas and I should be through the major temptations of the season. 

I just had my breakfast which was a wonderful Strawberry Banana Smoothie.  C and F are both home today, but I am still working so yuck..

I will update later...

Talk to you later...

Every day I get a little healthier..

At least that is I keep telling myself as I resist the urge to open the cookie container and sample my baking.  One cookie would lead to two and so on.., so instead I have a some vegetables.  It is a good choice for me, but not always an easy one to make.  

This morning started off with some Kashi cereal and some V-8 Juice,  lunch was salad, and dinner was a microwaved Sweet and Sour Weight watcher meal.  F is home and it is great to have him home. So we are going out on the town tonight.   Tomorrow, the plan is to go to a Warm Drink Party and I will be making Gluhwein...Though I do not think that I will be partaking, but we will see.

So my blog is going to be short because I need to get ready...

Take care and talk to me later..

Husband is home to save me from the cookies

So the best news of the day is that F is home!!  Yeah someone to eat all of these Christmas cookies!!  This morning I had an avocado around noon.  Yeah that is right around noon, because I was dealing with yeaterday's work fall out and getting something else done and lost track of the time.  The something else was dealing with the Staples screw up of my Christmas gift for my nephew.  I ended the first phone call with a promise from the supervisor that she was going to take care of it and call me as soon as she had more information.  Then I picked up C and came home to more work waitng for F to get home.  At 6:00, I had still not heard from the Staples person, so I called back and was literally on hold for one person or another for 40 minutes, while I was on the phone F got here and I missed the first hug and stuff because I was telling the person that they were going to rectify this immediately.  After another 1/2 hour on the phone with the supervisor, being told there was nothing they could do but cancel order or deliver it after the new year.  I cancelled the order, ordered the same thing somewhere else paid an extra $5 for shipping and it will get there Friday or Saturday.  Then I called Staples back to because it was the Visa Gift card vendor who told me he could not do anything, nor could he call Staples do get them to pay for the expediated shipping, because he did not have there phone number... Anyway, Staples apologized and gave me a $50 gift certificate for staples as compensation.  I finally had a microwave dinner from Weight watchers around 8:30.

Now I am chilling with F watching all the shows I DVR'd for him...

Take care and talk to you later...

Work was horrible and I was exhausted

Yesterday was one of those days work wise where I wish I could just fast forward through the day.  I was on fix it duty, for someone elses issues.  It was one of those days when you look at it and say "What did we learn today so that it never happens again.

As far as my diet, it actually ended up being another almost unprocessed food day.  I was not very hungry in the morning, so I made a little fruit salad with apples, grapes, and some left over frozen peaches.  Lunch was salad of cucumbers, and green peppers.  Dinner it was just easiest to take some of the left over chicken breast, cut it up, and thrown it on top of green salad and cut up some avocado. It was very good.  I say almost unprocessed because I had my Coke Zero which is totally processed.

After making more cookies with C, it is a long story.  I put her to bed and then basically passed out on the couch only to wake up at 6:30 this morning...hence why yesterdays blog is being written now..

By the way, if I ever need more motivation to lose the weight and get healthy this article will do it...

http://www.lef.org/news/LefDailyNews.htm?NewsID=12025&Section=DISEASE&utm_source=DailyHealthBulletin&utm_medium=email&utm_term=Disease&utm_content=Body+Title&utm_campaign=DHB_111220

it is all about how obesity is linked to worse outcomes in breast cancer treament.  While I pray to avoid being diagnosed all together, if I ever was I would like to be as strong as possible to fight it.

F comes home later today, and I have another busy day ahead.

Talk to you later today...Take care

Unprocessed food day and I am done Christmas shopping...

So I started the morning off, with a fabulous Strawberry Banana Plain non fat yogurt smoothie.  Around lunch time, I was not really nugry so a made a cucumber salad and threw in some green peppers too.  It tasted so good.  I had not had any Coke Zero yet, so I thought might as well make this an unprocessed food day.  picked up an organic chicken breast and broiled it and had cauliflower to go with it.  It was really good. 

So after dinner, I went out to finish my christmas shopping.  I got C the Justin Bieber perfume, she wanted and bunch of harder chapter books.  I picked authors like Beverly Clearly, Judy Blume, and Carolyn Hennessey.  The first two I remember reading when I was her age and the third one does a Pandora series. The description seemed very cool.  She loves to read and has the most accelerated reader points of any one in her class.  I also got her a new wall calendar with Bunnies and their Friends, basically cats and dogs and other animals.  It is too cute.

I made an appointment with my PCP today for a physical, since I want to get a bunch of things checked or get referral for things.  The soonest I get an appointment in not until the end of January, so the tests will have to weight a month.  Oh well gives me time to lose more weight before I see her and impress her even more. 

On the weight loss note, more clothes not fitting to the point they may have to be put away.  i have this long black skirt.  I put it on today and kept having to pull it up because it would fall off my waist so much that the skirt would be dragging the ground.  Oh well,  I am sure F will be happy to see it go, he calls it my "I want to look Frumpy leave me alone skirt."



Well time to chill and then hide the stuff I bought somewhere that C will not find it, so I am thnking on top of the litter box or in her room in her closet. LOL Just kidding...

Talk to you later...Take care.

What kind of person makes Christmas cookies when she is not going to eat any???

The simple answer A MOM!!.  C wanted to make Christmas cookies , so we maded 2 dozen for home and another 2 dozen for school...I am pround to say not a drop of dough, or frosting and not even a crumb of cookie passed my lips...

For breakfast, I had Kashi cereal.  Then it was time to make the cookies.  Then we were watching Christmas shows.  I had a salad for lunch.  Dinner was baked chicken and vegetables.  Pretty boring but I guess I am happy with a little boring. 

I still have Christmas shopping to do, so tomorrow is babysitter night and I go shopping and hopefully finish quickly.  I hate malls this time of year. 

The coming week at work is going to be super busy, we have a lot a things that we are doing this week.  Most of  requirements that take affect in January that we are trying ot get in before the holidays.  I have to remember that I need to eat. 

Talk to you later...

Check off the Christmas gft to myself-Weigh in day

So as you may or may not remember, a couple of weeks ago I said that  my goal was to lose 50 pounds by Christmas as a gift to myself and YES I have made my goal.  I lost 9.5 pounds this week!!!! I knew I was retaining water last week. 

So I have to tell you I saw a new doctor today to go over my weight loss progress, I see a doctor once a month.  I LOVE THE NEW DOCTOR!!! The first great MD experience I have had since I started this journey.  First she complimented me on my fabulous progress and then we talked about hormones and maybe I should get my thyroid checked again.  I have had my thyroid check several times and it always come back normal.  She asked if I have ever been told that I have cysts on my ovaries.  I told that on several occassions I have had been told that.  She said that I may have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, which affects hormones and weight.  She said that I should try to follow up with my OB/GYN and see about being put on Metformin, which will help with the hormones that cause the cysts and will also help with weight loss because it affects insulin production.  Wow, I am so impressed, a physician that talked to me and wants to find out how she can help with my long-term weight loss.  I will make an appointment with my regular MD to discuss both issues and then probably my OB/GYN to discuss the cysts on my ovaries.   I would really like to be able to have another baby eventually. 

After the weigh in, I went to have my new contact lens checked.  I bought C a dress for church on Christmas. I left the mall as quick as possible and then stopped at Office Depot and got printer paper.  Then it was off to the grocery store and I got fresh fruits and veggies and lots of good stuff for dinner this week.

I had Kashi cereal this morning, before I left for the day.  It is time to have some lunch.  It will probably be a salad for lunch.

Total weight loss so far 51.5 pounds...OMG I am so proud of myself...I am so glad I decided it was time to make a change...

Take care and talk to you later.

Christmas is coming and the Goose is getting fat...but I will not

Everywhere you look there are temptations during the Christmas season, whether it is cookies, candies, alcoholic drinks, or even just the holiday meal yet again.  I am even tempting myself by making cookies with C.  She enjoys making cookies for Santa and I am not going to change this tradition just because I am dieting.  Resisting these temptations only make me stronger inside. 

Today was a good food day as I managed to get all my meals in and they tasted good,  For breakfast, I made a strawberry-banana non fat yogurt smoothie.  It was so good and hit the spot this morning.  It did not have as much fiber as Kashi cereal but it was made with good things that make my body stronger.  Lunch was a salad with avocado, cucumbers, and cauliflowers.   Another wonderful lunch.
Dinner was a weight watcher sweet and sour chicken.

By the way, does anyone know a good recipe to bring to a party that is low in fat and tastes fabulous and is hearty enough that that it can soak up alcohol.  F and I along with C will be going to a warm drink party for the holiday season,  The hosts are making those warm drinks associated with the holidays like mulled wine, gluhwein, etc and ask that you bring a dish to share that will help soak up the alcohol so we all do not get to drunk..HELP!!  

Tomorrow is a weigh in day and I hoping for a big number, but whatever happens happens..

Well time to clean up the kitchen in  preparation for cookie making tomorrow.

Talk to you later.

Bad Food Day!!

It is not what you think, I did not go to McDonalds and order a buger with super sized fries and milk shake....in fact it is the opposite!!  I did not eat enough.  I was so busy working and being on Conference calls that it was 11:00 before I remembered to pour some cereal while I had my phone muted, praying that they did not ask for my input when my mouth was full of Kashi.  It was 5:00, when it hit me that I had not had lunch at all and I was not hungry either and I had to run to go pick up C from school.   At around 8:00 pm tonight, I finally had a weight watcher meal, Sweet and Sour Chicken and a salad.  I am full and even if I wasn't, it is too late now to eat anything because I try not to eat after 10:00 or two hours before I go bed because when you sleep your metaoblism slows.  So realistically I am  looking at the fact that I managed to eat about 800 calories today. 

So why is that bad?  Because if you eat less than you should your body has the potential to go into starvation mode, which means it hold on to the fat and begins to breakdown muscle for food.  I do not want to lose muscle, I want to lose the fat.  So it was one day and my body will probably not go into starvation mode over one day, but I do not want to start a bad trend with my body either.  I have worked very hard to establish healthy habits over the last almost 2 months and now is not the time to mess with that schedule.

So my goal for tomorrow is to make the time in my day for me.  That means eating regularly and feeding my body the good nutrition that it needs to do the job I need it to of letting go of the fat. 

Have a good night...Talk to you later...

My pants are baggy!!!

Yeah that is right my pants are baggy...I am loving it...Okay that was my little celebration for today.  Today was my typical work from home day...Kashi cereal eaten at 11:00am because I had back to back Conference calls.  I had banana and some V-8 Juice around 4:00pm after picking up C from school.  Dinner was at 8:00 and I had baked chicken breast, cauliflower mash and some cucumber.  C is now in bed and I am doing a little more work and then going to bed early...Maybe if I can sleep which is always an issue.

So here is my story of the day, my husband cousin D is visiting her family in Europe. One of her flights was late and she missed her connection and her, her husband and her 3 kids were at the Delta counter trying to find alternative ways to get there.  I saw her post on facebook and commented on it, so she for whatever reason could not make the international call to let her parents know what was going on and asked for me to call her.  She gave me their number and I was calling to tell them to call her on her cell phone. This is F's aunt and uncle and I have only ever met his aunt like once when I was in Germany.  So here I am calling these people trying to use my limited vocabulary to tell them who I am, my mind goes blank as soon as I answer the phone, so I am trying to explain who I am and why I am calling.  I think I said I was F's wife like 6 times.  Luckily D's father speaks pretty good english so I was able to get the point across.  Hopefully, these two member's of my husband;s family do not think that I am total idiot.  I tell F the story and he laughs and says you should have called my parents and had them call them.  Oh well it all worked out and D got to talk to her mother.  I hope she makes it there before Christmas...

Well time to work..

Talk to you later.

Can I get more hours in the day...wait NO!! I would just work more.

So I have to say my body seemed to love the no processed foods yesterday, but I missed my Coke Zero and Kashi.  Anyway, this morning was filled with getting C to school and then coming home and went straight to work.  Around 10:30 after my first conference call I realized I had not eaten yet.  So a bowl of Kashi Honey Sunshine.  It tasted so good.  The more work and it seemed everytime I made progress on one project # more got thrown my way.  It was just craziness.  Around 3:00, I had a Kashi Protein bar and then more work was done.  I told C, I would pick her up at 4:00 from after care and when I looked up It was 4:30, so it was a rush to the school to get her.  She had not finished her homework, so it was dinner for C and homework, then rushing to get to dance class on time.  After 2 hours at dance, it was rushing home so that C could get ready for bed.  She finally was tucked in at 9:00 and then it was time for me to eat.  I decided to go easy and quick and had some of my roasted potatoes, broccoli, and non-fat cheddar dish. Then, yeah you guessed it!!, More work.  Just craziness....

I did watch the Biggest Loser Finale while I ate, whch for some reason in the past always made me feel self conscious.  Like Bob could some how see through the TV and see my munching on my McDonalds as he preached eating healthy and exercising.  Tonight though I knew I was on my way and while I made not lose the weight as quick as those contestants, I do not have a personal trainer riding me every day.  it is just me, myself and I in this battle.   I was very proud of the three finalists and they did a great job, but it reminds me of the fact of life that itis easier for men to lose weight than it is for women.  Those damn hormones!!

I promise I will not work all night....

Talk to you later...

Processed Food free day...I actually feel really good

I want to try to have one day a week where I do not eat any pre-processed foods.  So today was that day this week.  The first hurdle was not having any Coke Zero.  I don't drink coffee usually so Coke Zero is my source for caffeine but it is a totally  processed food so it was out today.  I started my morning with a peach smoothie made from plain non-fat yogurt (not sure if this is a processed food but it did not contain anything artificial so I am letting it slide) and frozen organic peaches.  A little tart but really good.  Lunch was a salad consisting of cucumbers, avocado, zucchini, and celery.  It was really good.  Dinner was an organic chicken breast which I broiled and had that with cucumber slices. 

I was expecting that I would give in a have some Coke Zero by now, but I have not! I am  just drinking water today. 

I told some the other day that I do not really consider this a diet it is more a change of my life and find myself asking: Is this food going to affect my healthy in a positive or negative way and if I find myself even thinking it would be negative than I just skip it. 

So I have set weight loss goals and shared them with you, so here is my first fitness goal.  When C starts soccer in January it will be her last season of recreational soccer.  In the fall, she wil move up to the Youth Development Program.  It is where she starts doing tournaments anyway.  One part of recreational soccer, at least on our team, is that near the end of the season we have a parents versus players game.  I have tried to play a couple times, but I am usually worn out after the first 10 minutes and hang back protecting the goal...Well since this may be her last Parents versus Players game,  I do not see that being part of YDP but I could be wrong, I want to be able to actually get out there and not feel like laying down on the field after 10 minutes.  I want to run and play.  I have got until around March.  I will let you know how it goes....

Talk to you later...

Restful Sunday? Yeah right I have a child!!

So today started with a trip out so C could practice soccer.  It was cold but fun to watch her and her friends playing a game they love.  Right as we were leaving for soccer fun, her friend A had her mom text asking for play date. So after soccer, I was frozen and we headed home for C to change and me to warm up and have some breakfast. I had a bowl of Kashi cereal. Well actually I guess you would call it lunch since it was after noon. Then I drove C to A's house and then went grocery shopping for the week. Once I got home, I had some lunch, which was a granola bar and a salad.   Dinner was cauliflower, broccoli, roasted potatoes and low fat cheddar cheese. Yummy...

F leaves tomorrow for VA.  So it is going to be an early morning driving him to the airport and then rushing to take C to school.  Wish me luck over the next 10 days..

Take care...Talk to you later. 

Spent the day...running errands and unwinding with my family

So after my weigh in this morning, I came home and chilled with C waiting for F to wake up.  I had some mashed potatoes that were left over from F's dinner this week. It was really about 1/2 cup and was enough to fill me up.  I was out of cereal so I had to eat something.  Once F was up, I ran to pick up my new glasses.  I have not gotten a new pair since we moved so I was way over due.  I went to Sears Optical which is a far cry from the place I went in VA.  My Optometrist in VA was the best. After that I went to pick up C's DS from being fixed.  I got home and was hungry.  Thankfully I found a Kashi bar in the pantry.  Around 4:00, I was slightly hungry so I had an apple.  I was not hungry until 8:00pm.  I had made F and C dinner, so I decided I should eat too.  I had Weight Watcher Sweet and Sour Chicken. 

F put up our outdoor Christmas lights today.  It looks so festive.  I am not really in the Christmas mood yet, but I am trying to get there.  Right now we are watching "The Polar Express" that is helping I think. Of course I am doing laundry at the same time so that probably is working against any spirit of Christmas.


Ok plans for tomorrow include Grocery Shopping for the week.  Making sure all of F's clothes are clean and ready to be packed for his 10 days in VA.  I am so jealous!  I would love to go visit too, but C has school.  It would be fun to hang out with friends.  C wants to go play soccer with E tomorrow morning.

Talk to you later..

Got in late and was tired...Weigh in today

Sorry I did not blog last night, but I was so tired by the time I got home that I just wanted to collapse and spend time with F.  I weighed in this morning bright and early and I lost 1 pound.  Usually, I would be upset at only losing a pound but between flying and PMS, I retaining lots of water, so I am just glad that the scale went down this week. 

I think next week will be a big weight loss and it will all even out.   Yesterday I had a No fat No Sugar, mixed berry blue corn muffin, lunch at the airport was a turkey sandwich for 13 dollars and they could not even give me one without mayo...I hate airport food.  I got home and had a Kashi bar because for one I was not hungry and two it was too late at night to have a large meal. 

I am glad to be home....sadly F leaves for VA on Monday and is there for 10 days, which means I am in working mom mode all week trying to balance my work with C's needs and I still have to get Christmas Shopping done.  F is done. I have a few more things to get for C.  Nieces and Nephews will be done on-line...probably today.

Talk to you later...

ITS ALIVE.....ITS ALIVE....

This was the name of my lunch today...a cute play on words for the Raw Salad and Raw bread that I had for lunch.  It was actually ok, but the  raw bread was not my taste.  Breakfast was a Blueberry, Banana and Almond scone...low fat and sugar free of course.  Dinner was grilled veggies and an appetizer of crab cakes..three mini broiled crab cakes, I skipped the tartar sauce. 

So I tried a raw diet this afternoon, because I am trying to expand my healthy food experiences.  Everyine at work thought I was crazy to order it, but was was the harm.  The salad had mesclun, cucumbers, tomatoes, avacado, mushrooms, and sunflower sprouts with a passion fruit Miso dressing.  They called the "bread"  Wheatless Essence bread.  The texture of the bread was what threw me for a loop.  I found that you had to take very small bites or it would stick to the roof of your mouth and that was not good for me. 

So of the food topic, I will never understand why people want to hurt other people.  The was a shooting today at Virginia Tech and 2 people lost their lives.  When I saw the news I ran to my phone to text L to make sure her daughter was okay.  Thankfully, she was, but today some parent is grieving the loss of child through mindless violence and a family is mouring the loss of a police officer.  My thoughts and prayers go out to everyine at Virginia Tech!!

Please be nice to each other!

Talk to you later!!

Today was a loooong day...

So it is after midnight and I am finally done working.  It is crazy I know!!  So today will be a short little blog...sorry..

Breakfast was a delicous low-fat sugar free Peach, mango,pineapple scone.  My boss took us out for lunch and I had salmon, some bread and a salad.  I was not hungry when I got to the hotel so I just had a Kashi bar, while I worked the night away..

Just a quick clarification from yesterday's blog.  I know that it is not just the mirror that can tell me that I am changing.  My clothes are fitting better.  By the way did you know that your fat cells store hormones.  I do, because as I lose weight my skin is breaking out like I am a teenager again.  I have alot more energy than I used to have so I am feeling better.  I am not giving up, this is a marathon not a sprint and the mirror will come I know.  F thinks that we should take a picture every month so I have photgraphic proof of the changes...I just hate looking at pictures of myself..but maybe I should bite the bullet and do it...

Talk to you later...good night!!

Perfumes and a Magic Mirror

I got to work this morning and after my first conference call went down and got a fat free sugar free apple cinnamon blue corn muffin.  Our receptionist got a new perfume that smelled like sugar cookies, That smell wafted through the office and stimulated my appetite. By lunchtime, I was really hungry.  So I had my large meal for lunch. It was a salmon filet, grilled veggies and fruit.  When I finished it, I was so full my stomach hurt.  I am still not hungry so dinner is going to be a granola bar.

I look in the mirror and even with 40 pounds lost I see absolutely no difference in how I look at all.  I wish I had a magic mirror like the evil queen had in Snow White.  Instead of asking who the fairest is, I would ask, "Mirror, Mirror, on the wall please show me what I look like a year from now."  I would hope that it would show me active and looking great, but I fear that it would show me the same size I am today....  I worry that the fact that I can not imagne myself looking healthy and fit is going to become a self fulfilling property.  This is me having a little pity party I guess..It to shall pass I am sure.

I hope that everyone is having a great night.

Talk to you later...

What is with airlines and nuts...

This is my week in LA....I got to the airport this morning and got the honor of being selected for the random full pat done and getting my hands wiped down and tested for explosives.. Nothing like starting a morning with getting your boobs felt up.   I got to the gate and was waiting.  I did not get the upgrade to First Class so I was organizingwhat I would need at my seat for the trip. I bought a Coke zero at the airport for when I woke up thristy because lord knows in coach they are not going to bring you a drink just because you are thristy.  Then I saw the granola bar I packed in my carry on and it hit me that it contains nuts...Now I am sensitive to the fact that people with severe nut allergies can be affect just by peanut powder being in the air.  I have a friend whose child has such an allergy, CR this is for you!!.  I decided to eat my granola bar at the gate, since I was a little hungry and then went and washed my hands just in cas the person sitting next to me was such a person.

Once I was all settles on the plane they handed out the breakfast for purchase menu to the coach passengers and I was really disturbed over half of the offerings contained peanuts. I asked the attendant what they would do if someone had a severe peanut allergy on the plane and her reaction was to look at me funny and shrug her shoulders.  Peanuts are common food allergy, why has half of your offerings contain peanuts?  This should change....SO if you fly, by pass the peanuts it just might save someones life...

The flight was okay.  The seat next to me ended up being empty so I had a little room to spread out and stretch my legs.. Not quite first class but not feeling like cattle either.

Work was cray when I got there, so I ended up have another granola bar for lunch.  Dinner is a salad with grilled shrimp and balsamic vinagrette and a side of grilled veggies.

Tomorrow is another busy day and I am sure I will will barely have time to eat again, but I am looking forward to scone in the morning...I hope they have a good flavor..

talk to you later...

talk to you later..

I don't like Mondays...

So today was a good food day...I had some cereal with banana slices this morning.  Lunch was a granola bar and some V-8 juice before we headed out to do some shopping.   I wanted to buy some new clothes for winter but, I changed my mind because another couple of weeks I  could be down a size.  Frank bought some shirts.  I had to take C's DS in to get fixed, the prongs for the game slot got bent so it would not work anymore.  ARGH..

For dinner, I made F and C some spaghetti, but decided I would have my roasted potatoes with broccoli and cheese again. It was really good.

Tomorrow I head out to LA and I did not get upgraded, so coach it is...  Oh well...

I am so glad to be making these changes but, today I was majorly grumpy because I have to leave tomorrow. I hate leaving my family.  I love my job, but it is hard to leave the people I love...

Planning on packing a granola bar, for the plane trip.  I will probably sleep most of the flight, but it is always good to have something to eat for the plane.

Talk to you tomorrow from LA.

Do you want a lollipop? Really!!! Are you serious!!!-Weigh in day

So today was weigh in day and I headed to the center.  I get there and walk in the door and little miss 20 year old size two looks at me and says, "Do you want a lollipop?"  She is presenting me with a cup a lollipops shaped like Santa's head.  I say, "No thanks", but I am thinking in my head, "Really are you serious?!! I am here to lose weight, I have things that tempted me all the time but I resist them.  You are supposed to be supporting this behavior and instead you are offering a frickin lollipop!!  Which by the way are pure sugar and very unhealthy!!!!"  She obviously just does not get it, a weight loss place is not a place for lollipops!!  While I am waiting, I see here offering them to several other people one and  everyone says no, and she looks at one of her co-workers and says, "Why doesn't anyone want a lollipop?"  I am thinking, "DUH!!!! First we are trying to lose weight and Second we are above the age of five!!!" 

So on to the news of the day...I lost 4.5 pounds this week and I guess somewhere along the way I missed a couple of .5 pounds in my weigh ins because I asked her subtract my current weight from my starting weight and I have lost 40.5 pounds in 6 weeks!!!!  I am so amazed and happy though I still can not tell a difference in my actual body.  I know it is hard when you look in the mirror every day.

I have 3 weeks until Christmas and I really would like the total to be 50 pounds by Christmas.  You know a little Christmas gift to myself...

I am in California next week, which is always a little more stressful for my body between traveling, time change, and having to eat out alot!!  I am planning on bring some Kashi bars for when I need them and to allow me to have some more control! 

I am looking forward to next year, I am envisioning this time next year that I can spend some weekends doing 5Ks and celebrating the fact that my health is better.  By the way, I may have to start a fund raising drive for the plastic surgery I am going to need afterwards to have the excess skin removal. It is a fact of life that after you lose large amounts of weight that the skin just does not snap back, especially if you have had children.  Depending on how many areas I need to have done I am realistically looking at needing $14,000 to $36,000 or more depending on how many body areas are affected and here is the kicker that makes me want to throw up.  Most insurances will not cover it unless you can document that the excess skin is causing issues and even in cases where you can document issues, the insurance will usually only cover it if the weight loss is a result WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY versus the person doing it themselves by making major life changes.  I just do not get it!! So why is it if I make a committment to myself and eat healthy and exercise and through that lose the weight over a period of time showing that I am serious that I am going to be punished by the insurance company.   I have got awhile before this is an issue, but please if you know any rich people that would willing to help a motivated girl out in about a year and half  or a plastic surgeon that you know that would be willing to do the surgery for free, please send them my way. 

Well time to hang with the family and enjoy my weekend...

Talk to you later....

I am in a funky mood....

So breakfast this morning, was the frozen cherries just mixed in the yogurt with a little kashi cereal on top...Very nice and filling.. Lunch was some V-8 juice and Granola bar while I was on a conference call.  Dinner was chicken with zucchini and squash and whole wheat penne pasta.  Everything was really good.. 

I weigh in tomorrow and hoping that I get good results but whatever happens I know I have eaten healthy. 

I was listening to music today and noticed I am in a funky mood by my music choices...but I have to say that my favorite song right now it "Fat Chick's Revenge" by Storm Large.  I think this is my theme song for this journey.  It is motivating and reminds me that just because some one puts you down because of you weight does not mean that you can not have the last word.   I am so going to enjoy this...

Talk to you later...

Today was a Smoothie day..

I woke up this morning and took C to school.  F asked for me to pick him up breakfast at BK on the way back because he wanted a crossandwich!! I got hoem with the Fast Food bag and decided that it was time for my breakfast as well.  Today I made my first smoothie...I took some frozen cherries and non-fat yougurt and blended it until smooth.  It was a very refreshing breakfast and not too sweet!  It hit the spot.   Lunch was a Kashi Granola bar and a glass of V-8 juice.  For dinner I had a Healthy Choice Steam bowl that was called Basil Grilled chicken and whole wheat pasta and another glass of V-8 juice. 

Now I am watching Santa Claus is Coming to Town with C.  Perfect night.

No rants tonight...just a simple thank you for support..

Talk to you later.