Lunch with a friend priceless

Today was one of those busy Mommy days that I would not give up for the whole world.  First F had an early flight for a conference, it is just me and C at home.  We had to be at the Soccer field at 8:30 for the end of the season and "tournament".  C played really well but let in a goal for the first time this season.  She is still beating herself up about it.  She takes soccer so serious.  I brought a Kashi bar to the field and had that for breakfast.  After soccer, it was home and clean up before J and H came to pick us up for a Movie and Lunch.  H and C have been taking dance together for awhile and really like each other.  J is a really cool mom who is alot like me.  She is about my age and it is really nice to have some one to talk.  We took the girls to see "Mirror Mirror".  We all really like it.  It remided me of the "Ever After", they changed up the story and made it very enjoyable!! 

After the movie we went to a local restaurant and I had a Salad with grilled chicken.  Calories 290.  It was really good. After the reastaurant we went to the toy store next door and the girls had bloast.  They did not want the day to end and to be honest neither did I, but I had so much stuff to do at home and more events planned for tomorrow.  It is really nice to have a friend to hang out with and we are planning the next play date and Mom's night out.  It is really nice since we are both actively losing weight so we are in sync about food and stuff.  It is very nice!!

Dinner tonight was chicken breast and vegetables and some avocado.  I loved it!! Gosh I am positive today...

Talk to you later...

It shows on my face..

F said today that it shows on my face that I feel better about myself and I guess that it does.  I am happy that my body is cooperating and allowing this weight to leave.  I love that I find it easier to do things that used to be harder for me. 

So today was National Cleavage Day and 5 and 1/2 months ago, I would never thinks of showing my cleavage.  It is not that I thought my cleavage did not look good, it was that I did not feel at all sexy.  Today I put on a shirt that showed my cleavage and went out shopping for drinks and snacks for C's last soccer game of the season. I felt good about myself.  That is not to say that others might not still view me as this extremely over weight woman, but I felt cute today!!

I had a Kashi bar for breakfast and Oatmeal and grapes for lunch.  Dinner was a chicken breast stir fried veggies.  I use very little oil for the stir fry.  I really enjoy eating healthy. 


Tomorrow is a busy day.  F has to fly to Atlanta tomorrow for a conference and C has an early soccer game.  I am going to try and make it to the weight in times tomorrow, but lord knows...C has to come first, since I am gone so much.  I really need to clean my house, but I also want to make sure C has a good time.  She wants to see "Mirror, Mirror"...

Talk to you later...

Getting my swagger back!!

Sorry it has been a couple of days since I blogged...It is always harder when I am LA, just because I am exhausted when I get back to the hotel...I have been eating healthy so I thought I would share some of my funny and cute stories from this week instead.  

I got locked out of my hotel room on the balcony.  I have no clue how it happened, but there I was stuck out in the cold with my cell phones in the room.  I was tempted for a second to climb over the walls separating the balconies to get to the a door, but then I looked down and realized a fall from the 3 floor of hotel onto the cement would have been bad idea.  Luckily I was able to flagged someone down to get me help and after 45 minutes out in the cold I was let back in my room,

I have been getting lots of "God you look great" comments this week, which of course was great for my self esteem and helped me get a little swagger back.  I noticed that I am walking differently.  When I was 100 pounds heavier, I walked in a way not to draw attention to myself.  I noticed this week that I am getting the slight swing in my hips back and feeling over all a little sexier. 

Today I was outside waiting for my cab, when a nice looking 40 something guy came up and started a conversation with me.  Asking me what I do and so on and then he popped the question, "Can I buy you a cup of coffee?"  I politely declined saying I was waiting for my cab.  He responded with, "No seriously, Can I buy you a cup of coffee and maybe some dinner?"  I again declined and I pointed to my wedding rings and told him that I am very married.  His response, "Is he here with you?"  I told him no but that it did not matter because I am happily married.  Luckily right then my cab arrived. 

I also found my post weight loss shoes...I have not worn high heel is forever for 2 reasons.  Once it is much harder to wear them when you are very over weight because all that weight falls on the ball of your feet and hurts much quicker and secondly I am very tall, like 6'0" and my husband is only 2 inches taller than me so high heels are not in the cards, but I am changing the rules for these shoes...

I mean wouldn't you change the rules for these hot shoes!!!!  I am going to totally buy them when I get there!! I may not wear them often, but I will wear them somewhere when I want to draw attention to my new found hotness!!

Okay time to go and pack to go back home!!!

Talk to you later....

Back to the grind...

I am back to LA tomorrow.  I had every intention of doing yoga today, but we were out shopping and time got away for me.  By the time we got home I had missed class.  Planning on doing some at the hotel room this week and picking it up next week. 

I have eaten really healthy today as usual.  I actually feel really good, especially after I spent yesterday beating myself up mentally.  It is a little crazy can send me back to those feelings of being inadequate that I grew up with and F did not mean to do that at all. 

I hate leaving C, she has no school tomorrow and it is always nice to spend time with her.

I know this is short, but some wounds are still open today and do not need salt added to them at all.

Talk to you later...

My husband always asks those thought provoking questions...weigh in results!

Today was weigh in day...and as every one who has been reading knows I was hoping to hit the triple digits this week....well....YEAH!!!!!  I lost 5 more pounds to put the total at 100 pounds lost so far!!!!!!! God it feels good to have to type those three numbers to display my total weight loss!!!!  I have a lot more to go, but in this moment I feel lighter than air!!  In 5 1/2 months, I have found the inner strength not to give up or give in.  I have started Yoga, something I would have never thought of doing 5 months ago.  I can run up the stairs with out getting short of breath.  I have gotten to the point that I can fly without having to worry about whether the seatbelt will buckle.  I have faced temptations and challenges and holidays and not given in to the them not because I was making some huge sacrifice, but because my health was more important. 

So on to the thought provoking question...F is great at being my rock and support system and after we celebrated this accomplishment, we started to talk about my next goal.  I have over 100 pounds left to go to get to the goal weight that I have in mind.  He asked "What are you going to do if you get close to your goal and the weight loss stops and it is something that no amount of exercise or cutting of calories can change?"    So my first answer was that I would assess if I could be happy for the rest of my life with my body at that point.  F said, "what if you aren't?"  My response was then I would look into the plastic surgery to remove any excess skin, the research I have done says that I can expect to have up to 20 pounds of excess skin after I lose all the weight.  I told him that I would do whatever was necessary to get the skin removed and then reassess if I could be happy with my body.  F said, "and if you aren't?"    I thought about that for few moments and said, "The I will see a psychologist, because then I would obviously have much deeper issues."   That being said, I probably do have much deeper issues...I can honestly tell you that there are moments that I look in the mirror and do not see any difference in my body now versus 100 pounds ago.  I can rationlize with myself that there must be differences because I am wearing smaller sized clothes and have more energy and can do all these different things, but inside there is this little voice that still says you are the same, you are still obese and that is what people see when they look at you...It is like the line from the Pink song "Change those voices in you head make them like you instead" 

I am still working on that battle and maybe that is hardest change that I have to make in my life.  The question is how do I do that when I have spent over 30 years beating myself up for being overweight?  How do you heal that little girl inside of me that spent her childhood, loving school because she loved to learn but hating to go to school because she knew it would just another day of being teased and laughed at and humilated?  I grew up, rose above it and became successful and I even forgave all of those that participated in that torture that I call "my childhood". They were kids too and they did not know that those words and deeds were causing scars to my soul.  I have to figure out how to forgive myself now and realize that I am the person I am today because of those scars. I have a wonderful husband that loves me for me, a beautiful, healthy daughter that sees me as the most fabulous mom on the face of the earth, and pretty nice work life where people realize that I know what I am talking about most of the time.   Friends that have stayed in my life even though I have moved hundreds away.  Still there is always that self doubt, I have problems making new friends because I think I do not fit in.  I can put on the social face, but I am uncomfortable going out with groups of people because somewhere deep down I feel like the group does not really want me around and that I am being judged for how I look on the outside.   So no matter what the situation, in groups I always feel like I am on the outside looking in on the group.  

Obviously I have more to work on both on the outside and the inside..

Enough deep provoking thoughts for one day...time to eat something and chill with my family...

Talk to you later.

Hopeful but not expecting....

I am really hopeful that I will be able to pull off a 5 pound weight loss tomorrow and hit the 100 pound mark, but I am not expecting anything.


I saw Hunger Games last night and it was wonderful!! 

I ended up so hyped after the movie that I did ntofall asleep until 5:30, which meant I was very tires today....I had a Vita-Top for breakfast...thanks to J for turning me on to them.  For those, who are not familiar they are these high fiber muffin tops that are 100 calories...Nice to have some variation.  I got the Banana Nut flavor, because that was all the Grocery store had, but I am also looking at the website. Some of the flovors sound really good..

Lunch was a bowl of Oatmeal...there is something abotu oatmeal in the middle of the day that makes me feel good.  Dinner was turkey breast and vegetables....

Next week, I am back in CA and they are back to ordering meals...Yuck!! more temptation better load up on some Oatmeal and Kashi bars...

I will fill you in tomorrow regarding the weigh in...

Talk to you later. 

I am sore but it is a nice sore

The day that followed my first Yoga class, was a day filled with mild soreness in my thighs, arms, abs, and butt.  Not a bad sore, but that kind your muscles give you when you work them and they are reminding you that they actually exist.  It was not debilitating just a small reminders..

My food was a little weird today, but I just went with it...I had a avocado for breakfast...I saw them and thought Yep that is breakfast.   Lunch was a oatmeal..and salad.. Weird I know.. Dinner was left over chicken breast and veggies from last night. 


I am going to see the Hunger Games...I loved the books and can not wait to see the movie.  So I am staying up late to go to the Midnight showing.  I have not done this since I had C 8 years ago.  F is taking a nap right now, so he does not fall asleep in the theater.

Talk to you later.....

Yoga...I LIKE IT!!!

Today was the day, I went to my first Yoga class.  It started with me waking up late and for a moment I was thinking that I would just skip it, but I got dressed and ran out the door determined not to make excuses.  I got to the studio about 2 minutes before class was scheduled to start.  Luckily they had everything I needed for the class.  I was very lucky that the class was very small so the instructor had time to correct my positions.  I stretched my body like it has never been stretched before and have way through I was sweating.  There were a couple of positions that I could not get into, namely the Floating Bridge or as I called it my bridge is falling down because there is no way my butt is getting any further off the floor,  but I tried everything and I am hopeful that I will continue to progress.

After yoga, I had a smoothie for breakfast, lunch was oatmeal, and dinner was chicken breast and veggies.  I feel good right now, though I can feel the soreness moving in, but as some one said it is the good kind of soreness..

I will give and update tomorrow....

Talk to later.

A New Goal in Mind and steps taken for upping the exercise

So I contacted the Yoga studio last night via the website asking them to call me.   I really want to get started on working those core muscles and there is a class that I am interested in but I may have to wait to start that one because it is  listed as full.  It is called Yogo Booty Ballet....It is described as "A fun and funky fusion of cardio dance, ballet conditioning, yoga, and meditation"  They say that students leave class feeling better about their bodies...Just what I am looking for....but since the six week class is full, I am going to start with straight yoga and I am asking them to recommend something.   It is time to start falling in love with my body, besides I am hoping that they can teach me some moves that I can continue to do when I am in California.


I still want to take up running as well and still plan on making my goal to run a 5K.  I am hoping that I will fall in love with running....I doubt I will but I would love to try.   But I also want a fun goal, or something that I think would be fun to do that I can't because of my weight.  So I have chosen Skydiving!!!  Yeah that is right I want to strap on a parachute and jump from a plane, with an instructor of course!  I want to feel what it is like to fall through the air and then the pull of the parachute as it opens and I gently glide down to earth.  I have wanted to do this for a long time, but there is a strict weight limit and I was always too heavy!! So when I get down to my goal, I am going to to go.  I do not know if F would go with me, but I am at least hoping he will take pictures of me.  So I will keep you updated when I meet that goal. 

Speaking of goals...I can not beleive that I am 5 pounds a away from being in triple digits for my weight loss.. I am feeling so proud of myself and then I think about how much further I have to go and it still feels overwhelming to get my goal.  I also know in my head that it is going to get more difficult as I go on, but I am up for the challenge, at least I pray I am.  I know that there are lots of challenges in my near future.  More trips to California, a trip to Germany, and just the ins and outs of daily life.   Thanks for all your support during the first 5 months of my journey.  I really think that I could not have been as successful with out my friends and cheerleaders..

Talk to you later...

The choices were worth it

So I finally weighed in after my two and half weeks in California and I lost 6 pounds. That puts the grand total at 95 pounds...I can see the triple digits in my near future...It is not the amount that I typically have lost in the same period of time, but when you take in to account the crazy hours that I was working and how half the time I would eat and then immediately fall asleep, I am happy with the results.  I know that if I had made different choices, like partaking the daily buffet feasts that the results would have been much different. 

On to a new topic, I have always said that this is not a diet, it is a life style change that I needed to make in order to be healthy.  I make the best choices I can and ones that I feel that I can live with for the long term.   That said I knwo that there are "Diets" out there that would accelerate my weight loss, not that losing 95 pounds in 5 months is not an amazing amount of weight, but they would be short term changes that I would not be able to maintain and then I would be right back were I started or worse yet heavier than when I started.  The latest suggestion is that I do Adkins and cut all carbohydrates out of my diet.  I know all about Ketosis and how it can cause your body to break down fats and yes even the protiens in your body when the body is starved of sugar.  But I can not be carbohydrate free for the rest of my life.  I enjoy fruits, cereals, and yes even starches too much to cut them from my life totally.  If I told myself, "YOU CAN NOT HAVE THAT"  then mentally I am going to start craving it and then I am going to resent that I can not have it. I may be able to continue to avoid them while I am actively trying to lose weight, but when I reached my goal I would go right back to eating them.   I never tell myself that I can not have something, I simply ask myself is it worth to me to have whatever it is that is tempting me at the time.  Most of time the answer is no, but for example I really like avacado, I know that it contains fat, but it is a non processed fat and it is worth it to me have it. Do I eat it 3 times a day every day...no but once in a while the taste is worth it to me.

So NO, I am not going to cut all carbohydrates out of my life, I can't and I won't!!  Gosh I am stubborn.

Talk to you later..

One shift to go and the last meals were served today

Today was the last day that they are providing all the meals for my go-live and I am happy to say that I have managed to resist them all!!!!!  Tomorrow is my last shift and then I fly home for a week of normalcy!!  I am so looking forward to spending time with my family.  F and C are the reason that I work so hard but being away from them. 

My shift started later today so I was able to have my oatmeal at the hotel before I left so I walked in feeling good. The egg sandwiches were still there when I got there but I was able to walk past without an issue.  I ate my Kashi bar lunch with some fruit and avoided the snadwiches from the French Sandwich shop and the cookies.  I left at 4:30 today so Dinner had yet to be delivered.  I came back to the hotel and had some V-8 juice and my last WW meal.  I am looking forward to home where I will have more choices and more control. 

I missed the Parents V Players game today, but the Players one by 1....GO FIREFLIES!! 

Time to pack and get ready for my last day.  I have 8 hours to go!!

Take Care...

The Cupcake Wars

No not the show that is on the Food Channel where bakeries compete to bake the best cupcakes for a cash prize.  Though for some torturous reason I love watching that show...but my personal war against cupcakes. 

My day starts with getting up just in time to take a quick shower, jump into my clothes, throw my oatmeal and Kashi bar in my bag and head to the looby and jump in a cab.  For some reason even though I remember the "Wake up call" my body had other ideas like getting more sleep.  I ran into work with 5 minutes to spare...YEAH..Breakfast was being delivered and it was the eggs, bacon, sausage, and just to spice things up they had mini quiches too.  I opt for my Oat Revolution Oatmeal and fruit.  I blogged earlier about the doubt that creeping up in my mind..well my will was tested when about an hour later they delivered cupcakes to a co-worker behind me to celebrate her birthday.  Why did she have to be sitting behind me because I could smell the yummy cake and frosting as it wafted in the air.  I looked at those beautifully decorated cupcakes in their silvery wrappers and all I could think is how deceptive a package those little cupcakes can be to some one.  They appear so small and harmless.  They are easy to rationalize because they only take a couple of bites to eat...How many calories could really be contained in those decorative wrappers.  So you eat one and then two and then before you know it you have eaten the equivalent of a couple of slices of cake.  For me they are my "gateway drug"  and I think this in my head..knowing that one bite and before I will know it I will be eating my way through enough calories for a week and the mental set back would be even more devasting because I would be beating myself up.   So I formed a mental "Cupcake Resistance" and the part of me that has no self doubt that I can do this took over and formed a the wall that made those cupcakes less appealing.  I was going along just fine when Lunch was delivered...OMG Mexican food from a local restaurant that is supposed to have fabulous mexican food.  The spread included Burritos (chicken or beef), black beans, refried beans smothered in cheese, rice, and chips and guacamole.  So my cupcake resistance called in reinforcements and I grabbed my Kashi bar quickly and began eating feeding my body and giving me energy.  When I felt myself being tempted, I headed outside to get some fresh air and walk around the block in hopes that when I got back to the CC the food would be gone and I would be refreshed and rejuvenated. 

When I got back I got some fruit to satisfy the sweet side of my brain and went back to work..there was left over but looking at the congealed cheese it was easier to resist.  I counted down the hours until my shift would be over.  About 10 minutes before I was scheduled to leave, they delivered dinner which was Beef Brisket, Mashed Potatoes with Gravy, and rolls.  I was glad that I was leaving because I do not know if the resistance could have held out much longer and I may have loaded my plate with Mashed Potatoes and covered them in Gravy.  I went back to the hotel and had an Orange and then had one of the two Weigth Watcher meals I had left in my freezer and the hotel.  I only have one more night in the hotel so unless I want to waste the meals I have to have them. 

I am proud of myself, I have resisted so many temptations over these 2 weeks.  Food that 5 months ago, I would have over indulged and not felt good about after it was all said and done. I have foudn that inner strength that I find amazing....

I made it a fitness goal to play in the Parents versus Players game that C's soccer team plays every season.  In the past I have found this task overwhelming and felt like I was going to pass out after about 5 minutes of running on that field.  I usally played defense since that allowed me to just stay in a small area.  I wanted to play the game this time and try out my new me, sadly the game is being played tomorrow during practice and I won't be there.  It makes me sad.  I hate missing things!!! I have to think positive though and remember I will be there for the last 2 games and the end of the season festival and party.  I have two more shifts and then I will be flyign home!!  I leave late Thursday night and I am taking the red eye home.  I will get in to town Friday morning after F and C have left for school and work.  I am planning on taking C out of school early as a surprise so we can spend some time together.  I got her a hair appointment so she can look super cute for her soccer pictures. 

On my to do list while I am home....includes finding a yoga class and finding the time to go, spending time with my family and rejuvenating my body and soul. 


Thanks to everyone for the love and support and a place where I can share my trials and successes....

Talk to you later,..

Wondering and Waiting

One of the smaller negatives about being away from home for so long, the bigger negatives being missing F and C so much that my heart hurts, is that I do not have a way to track my progress.  NO SCALE...NO WEIGH INS.   Am I gaining weight while I am here?  Is my body hitting a plateau?  So last night after eating a salad with grilled shrimp and low fat dressing, grilled veggies, and even having some bread, the doubts hit me.  This doubt is bothering me as it  begins to eat away at my self confidence. 

I had Oatmeal and fruit for Breakfast, a Kashi Bar for lunch, and of course the dinner listed above.   Are all of these choices paying off? 

How do I get pass this mental block?  I should not need validation but I do!!!  I am the type of person that is motivated by results...I know it should just be the "good"  feeling that makes a difference. 

Of course this could all be a product of the bread I ate last night, because while warm and yummy.  My body seems to not like, because I feel run down this morning like I had a blood sugar spike and then it took a deep dive.

Of course that could be because in the Last 2 weeks I have worked over 120 hours!!

Talk to later....

Just got great news today....Non weight related but lifting my spirits!!!

Today was another 12 hours day of working,  we do not have alot issues so it is alot of sitting around...though I have been taking some time to go take a wa lk around the block to get some exercise.  Whe I got to work today, my boss A said we needed to go over the schedule for the next two weeks. My schedule was to fly home late thursday and then fly back Monday for another 2 weeks with a flight home on the weekend.  Since our application is doing so well and is stable, I will fly home thursday night as planned and then I will be working from HOME for a week!!  That means 10 days with my F and C!!!!  It also means I get to see two soccer games this season and depending when the Parents V Players game is scheduled I may get to play that too....Just 4 more days of work and I willl get to be with my family again...There is no better news I could get. 


I had oatmeal and fruit for breakfast, a Kashi bar and orange for lunch, and WW meal for dinner with the last of avacados I bought down her.  It was really yummy. 

I am struggling not being able to weigh myself at all since I got here.  I have no idea if I am losing or gaining.  I can only say that I have done my best to eat healthy and I have not given into all the food temptations that have surrounded me.  The lunch that they provided today was Pizza and Wings, which is why I had a Kashi Bar!!...Nothing healthy there at all, but it smelled good!!

Talk to you later...

A fell asleep before I could blog

So my week has turned into a demented version of the Seven Dwarves, where the mean cousins came to visit and kicked all the nice Dwarves to the curb and they were replaced by Bitchy, Sarcastic, Bitter, and Doqnright mean.....I have stuck with my plan to eat healthy and have yet to give into the unhealthy food or snacks that surround me on a daily basis. 

Though I have to admit I was tempted yesterday as the Bitchiness surrounding me has reached a fever pitch.  I resisted though and had an apple instead.


I brought my oatmeal today and a Kashi Bar for Lunch....

Talk to you later.

Finally a day off...able to be away from the food pressure

Today was my day off.  YEAH!!  I got to be away from the constant food temptations.  I had a Kashi Bar for breakfast.  After resting a little more, I went grocery shopping across the street..so lunch was a salad made with tomatoes, cucumbers, and avocado with some balsmic vinagrette.  Dinner was a frozen dinner, but one of the steamers packages.  mixed veggies with chicken..Super Yummy!!

I took a walk around in the drizzle today...I had planned on hitting the sights today but alas I woke up to a cloudy, windy, rainy day in sunny LA.....ARGH!!!  I have been working in LA for a year and half and I have yet to see a star on the Hollywood walk of Fame or Mann's Chinese Theater or even had time to take one of those bus tours that takes you to the Star's Homes!!! Oh well, I have one more day off and that is Saturday!!

I have another early day at work!!  Take care everyone.

"Food Is Love"....this is how I got in this position!!!

My So today was another 12 hour shift.  I started the morning with some oatmeal.  While the buffet laid out was breakfast sandwiches on crossiants and bagels and they lookes so good with eggs and melty cheese. There was also potatoes and some fresh fruit.  I resisted it all and was happy with my oatmeal.  It was about this time that the director came up and was talking about how in her mind "Food Is Love"  so we should eat as much as we want...  I thinking it was that mentality that got me to the point that the amount of weight that I had to lose is at time overwhelming. 
The snacks soon replaced the breakfast.  Chips and candy readily available for the hard working room.  Lunch was brought around noon and I was eating my Kashi bar and my boss brought over a plate with Half a rotissirie chicken and green beans and told me that I was not not leaving until I ate some protein.  Great now I am being made to eat....So let me say that there was a time that I would have eaten the whole half a chicken and still have had more, but today I looked at the plate and thought the amount of food was overboard.   I had some of the white meat and waited for the moment that I could dispose of the plate.  My stomach felt overly full and uncomfortable. 

So when I got back to the hotel, I decided to just have some oatmeal for dinner and some V-8 juice.  I have tomorrow off, so I am planning on going grocery shopping.   I need some fresh fruit and veggies.  I also need to stock up on some frozen dinners and Oatmeal. 

Talk to you later..take care..

Another 12 hour day down!!

My shift started at 6:00 am this morning and after a little while luckily they delivered some hot water so I was able to make some oatmeal.  The delivered eggs, bacon, sausage, and pastries.  Along with the oatmeal, I had some fresh fruit.  Lunch was Greek food, so I declined and had a Kashi bar instead.  That manged to hold me until my shift was over at 6:00 pm.  As I was getting ready to leave they delivered dinner, which was Lasagna and man it smelled good to my hungry body.  I knew though that just one little square of the cheese and meat and pasta would have set me back.  Instead I headed for the door and my hotel, where I got a healthy chicken breast and salad.

I keep thinking to myself that if I gave in and ate all the food provided that  would gain 20 pounds during this go live.   It is like a being on cruise with food being available 24-7. 

I have to be back at work at 6:00 am tomorrow for another adventure in resisting. 

Time to chill and watch the Amazing Race, then shower and off to bed.

Talk to you later.

I will survive this go live...

Yesterday my shift started at 11:00 pm and when I got there I was glad that I brought some healthy snacks with me, since obviously healthy snakcs are going to be few and far between.  At midnight, they ordered pizza and the aroma was permeating the room, but I resisted and did not partake.  The snack table consists of chips, candy, and cookies.  Around 2:00 am I had a Kashi bar that brought to help resist the snack table.  At 4:00 am they brought out the only healthy snack I had seen, some madarin oranges and I had one of those.  At 7:30 they delivered the "non-hot" breakfast, which was pastries and some mixed fruit.  I had some fruit which was not that great.  I asked for some hot water, since there was no microwave, so I could make some of the oatmeal that I had packed.  Sadly it never arrived though the "hot breakfast arrived an hour later with eggs, bacon, sausage, and hashbrowns.  I did not partake of any and decided to just wait it out until my shift was over.   When I left at 11:00 am, I went to the local coffee shop and got  non-fat no sugar peach mango oat bran muffin and ate it while I waited for a cab to take me back to the hotel. 

I got the hotel and went to sleep. I woke up 2 hours later and had a glass of V-8 juice and crashed again.  Now it is 9:00 and I need to eat dinner.  Luckily I have a Weight watcher meal in my freezer in my room that I am cooking up.  It is turkey breast with vegetables.  I also cut up an avocado that I bought the other day.  

I am watching TV before I take a shower and head back to bed.  I have to be back in the morning at 6:00 am.  Breakfast is going to be the eggs, bacon, sausage, hash brown thing again, so I am planning on just having a Kashi bar for Breakfast.  I am planning on taking some veggies that I have in my fridge here and cutting them up for lunch tomorrow.  Since I have seen the menu and it consist of sandwiches from a with mayo and such.  I have found that my body does not really like white breads at all.  When I have white bread, it is usually followed by my stomach hurting and feeling bloated.  I do not have that issue if I have a whole wheat bread, but usually the sanwiches are on crossiants or white rolls. 

Go-live is going really well and our team is surviving well.

Take care and talk to you later.

Wish me luck on avoiding the snacks tomorrow....

It is going to be a long night....

I started off the day going into work at 7:45 am  and went to the office to collect some things from my office.  Then I got an oat bran muffin (no fat no sugar added) apricot and blueberry for breakfast.  I went over to the space we are using for the go live and worked until noon there.  I went back to the hotel and had an orange, kashi bar, and V-8 juice for lunch.  I then tried to sleep... I think I finally fell asleep around 1 pm.  I woke up at 3:00 pm and watched a little TV and had an orange.  Went back to sleep and and woke up when F and C called after soccer game at around 6:00 pm.  I debated what to do for dinner and decided since I have to work from 11 pm to 11 am that I would rather have a more filling meal so that I do not go into a snack attack at 2 in the morning. I had a salad with grilled shrimp and side of grilled veggies.  My stomach is full, but I hoping it will last the night.   That said I am planning on taking a Kashi Bar in case I get hungry late at night and some Oat Revolution Oatmeal for breakfast in the morning since the breakfast fare is usually the hearty egg, bacon, sausage and biscuits which I do not want eat and on the other hand I do not want to be hungry when I get back to the hotel either.  I figure that oatmeal is a good choice as long as the hot water is available.

Talk to you all later...

Being brave

So I was brave today and posted a picture of my new self on Facebook..I then held my breath waiting for someone to say something negative...Why does my brain work like that? 

Today started out with me having to go to a class to see what the physicians are being taught.  Since it was a morning class, they provided breakfast, the choices were scrambled eggs, fried potatoes, sausage and bacon.  Luckily they also had some fresh fruit.  So I had some fresh fruit and a Kashi bar.  Lunch we went to a local deli and A and I  split a chopped salad, with lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, and garbanzo beans, with some shredded chicken.  We got the Balsamic Vinegrette on the side.   It was really good.  Dinner was a WW Turkey dinner, which was much better then what I had last night.  I cut uop an avocado and had that as well, sadly it was not as ripe as I would like so I only had a few bites before I gave up. 

Tomorrow is one of those crazy days, I am going into work in the morning to help get ready got go-live working a half day and then I will be coming back to the hotel to rest because I have to be back there at 11:00pm to do the actual go live and will be working until 11:00 am Saturday morning.  It is just a little crazy right....

Time to chill out a little...Talk to you later.,