It is just not worth it.....

No no the healthy eating change...were you doubting me?  I find myself saying this phrase alot when I am thinking about a food that I am "craving". Today it was a Subway Sub.  I do what I find myself doing all the time now and that is looking at the nutritional informantion for what it is that I want and deciding if it is a good choice or a bad choice.  Subway has lots of nutrition info on-line. It starts with showing you the subs calories for the 6 inch with lettuce, tomato, onions, and cucumbers, then it has a calculator function where you can change that sub both the size and bread used and add the toppings and condiments that you want to it and it will show what the calories are for your sub.  The calories I got after I made a few changes put the sub out of my comfort zone and I said "it is just not worth it". 

Last night went really well food wise not work wise. We had a  issue that extended our downtime by over an hour, which of course increased the amount of time that I had to stay up on the phone. I had a bowl with some grapes, but they did not taste that good.  So around 5 am, I was getting sleepy and so I needed something.  I had a scoop of non-fat no sugar added frozen yogurt and added a handful of Kashi Go-Lean as a topping and because it has fiber and protien too.  This really helped do two things one give me a pop of energy and keep me awake enough that when they were finally ready for me to do my part, I was not asleep.  Sadly, we did not finish until 7 am my time and just as I laid down on the couch to go to sleep. C came down the stairs saying, "Hi Mommy"..  UGH !! I have great little girl though because she could tell I was tired and said don't worry about me mommy I will watch disney. She then went back up the stairs and got me her pillow pet.  Ahh...I fell right asleep and woke up only after F got up.  Just in time for Football.  

Dinner tonight is going to frozen dinner, because F wants a rotisserie chicken from a local restaurant and I am just not into that so that F and C will eat that.  Currently getting clothes ready for my trip to CA tomorrow and preparing for another week of eating out challenges and avoiding the bad snacks on the plane. 

Talk to you later...

CHALLENGE ALERT

Tonight is going to be a challenge time for me.  I have to work tonight when the hospital takes a downtime to put in new code.  I was supposed to have this downtime off since I did the last two, but we also making another major change so it was decided that 2 of us would work the downtime.  Yeah!!! NOT!! Here is the problem it means that I have to work from 3:00 am to about 7:00 am.  In the past, I foound it was easier to stay awake if I was snacking on something, but that is not an option tonight.  So I am going to have to stay awake some other way.  YUCK!!

Today was a good food day.  I had Kashi Go-Lean for breakfast, salad and fuit for lunch. Dinner was a little hard since we went to Bravo for dinner.  Italian basically a carb and fat paradise.  I got the salad with shrimp on top and dressing on the side.  I was expecting shrimp to be grilled but it was not it was cold. That was a little disappointing but it was enough to fill me up and help me avoid eating anything else.  So I am going to take a nap now so I can wake up later....

Wish me luck tonight. I will post tomorrow if I was successful in avoiding the pitfalls.

Are your clothes feeling looser yet?

I left off last night heading to my daughter's soccer game. They won 2-0 and C stopped  shots on goal when she was in goalie and played her heart out on defense the other 2 quarters.  Afterward, the girls wanted pizza sowe headed to the pizza place.  I would tell you about the jerk that tried to bait me into going off.  Not a smart move to do to someone that is eating healthy and in a pizza restaurant smelling the delicous scent of melted cheese and baking dough. He almost succeeded but thankfully my husband knowing that I can go off  and the other adults helped me calm down. Hopefully the other adults do not think badly of me but I have my family's temper when I perceive that that you bad behavior is affecting my child!! You could call me names and be a jerk to me and I would probably just flip you off, but I am like a Mama Bear on crack when it comes to my child. Anyway, I was not hungry at the pizza place so I just had a diet soda and watched the others eat. It was nice just to have a conversation. Once we got home, C went to bed and F and I watched a little TV and then F went to bed and I stayed up a while longer and ended up falling asleep downstairs :-(  That sucks because I have to work tonight because we are taking some new code at work and I am working the installation remotely and I fly out to CA on Monday.  

I got up this  morning and it weigh in day.  So I here is the news you are all waiting for.....Loss another 9 pounds for a 2 week total of 20.5 pounds and that is when the little size 2 girl that was weighing me asked...Are your clothes feeling looser yet?  NO not yet, I wish!! I am still in the I do not feel like I have lost any weight stage. I can see no noticable difference in anything.  I know it will come and I am looking forward to the day when someone says "you are looking good! Have you lost weight?  I can answer proudly that yes I have.  Until then I will continue to know that I am making healthier choices and making sure that I will be around for awhile.. Heck some day, I may be the hot mom.  Until then I keep thinking I CAN DO IT!!!

Thanks everyone!

Are you the Saboteur?

There was TV show on a few years ago like a mix between Amazing Race and Spy called "The Mole"  The premise was a group of people working together to complete tasks and among them was a Mole whose job it was to sabotage the mission.  Then at the end of the show the contestants would take a quiz answering questions about who the saboteur was and the contestant that scored the lowest on the test was eliminated.   I loved that show and usually I could figure out who the saboteur was, but in terms of the changes I am making to my life the Saboteur is not as easy to identify.  It is those people that for whatever reason do not want you to change and they make those comments like, "It is just a little ----fill in the blank. It won't kill you." or "Don't be such a killjoy it is a party live a little".  These are people that in a regular light without you trying to change everything about how you eat would be your friends, co-workers, and family...I met a few last week at the Baby Shower, when they kept making comments that I should get something to eat even though I had already said "No Thank you, I am trying to be healthier" 

Now luckily so far I have more cheerleaders than saboteurs.  These are the people that encourage even your smallest steps, send you low fat recipes, and in general make sure that you feel good about the changes you are making.  My husband, F, is a great cheerleader so far but I am watching for the saboteur that could be buried deep especially as I lose more weight, because he loves to share things like Chocolate bars from Germany.  We would open up a chocolate bar and share it as we watched TV at night.  I know, he misses that and is now "being forced" to eat the whole bar himself. 

So on to my day in food, I had some Kashi Go Lean for breakfast.  My favorite when I am home.  For Lunch I had a cup of the left over mushroom rice from last night and I am going to eat a Lean Cuisine frozen dinner before I head to the soccer field for C's soccer game. Since afterwards, we usually go out for pizza with a couple of parents/kids from the team and I do not want to tempted to throw it all away on some pizza because I am starving.  This gives me the excuse to say I ate before the game and just have a small salad at the restaurant.  Hopefully, there won't be any saboteurs there trying to guilt me in to eating pizza, but if they are I will remember my cheerleaders and dig deep and resist.  Hey if I can resist Halloween candy, then I can resist pizza.

Tomorrow is weight in day.  Wish me luck and big numbers!

Hi My name is Crystal and I am a Fast Food Addict

Yes, that is right.  I am a fast food addict.  I say this because between working half time in California, flying alot, and an active child that has evening activities 3 nights a week at the very least.  It has become very easy just to pull in to the drive through and order some dinner on my way home from soccer or dance.  Well I started this almost 2 weeks ago and I have not had any Fast food since the day I made the choice to change.  Now did my life get less hectic?  Heck No!!  I  am just trying to make time for me and eating healthy.  So I looked on-line for a healthy dinner option tonight that would be easy to make. So tonight, even though I was working late I made sure to stop at the store after I picked C up at school and went grocery shopping got skinless, boneless chicken breast, brown rice and Low fat mushroom soup.  3/4 a cup a rice to 1 soup can and cup of water then placed the chicken breasts on top and baked in the oven at 375 for 45 minutes..added some paprika and pepper to the rice and it was yummy...I had half a chicken breast and cup of rice and a side of fresh cucumbers and it 350 calories and 7 grams of fat.  Less than the WW microwave meal I had last night and the bonus the whole family was able to eat together. C thought it was good too and she was able to help me make it a Mommy/Daughter moment...Candy has still been avoided..I had Kashi Go Lean for Breafast and protien bar for lunch. 

So now you know my addiction, if you are at Mc Donalds and you see the missing poster with my picture please do not give them any information leading to my whereabouts.  I prefer to remain in hiding...

War against the Halloween Candy

I have resisted the Halloween candy that is sitting in my house..  Thank goodness because I woul dhave to be defeated by fun size candy bars.  I have continued to eat healthy.  Sadly my asthma is acting up so exercising is out of the question right now.  I have been crazy busy working, so mot much to report.  I have to remind myself to eat which is good I guess since it is an indication that I am not eating out of habit but only eating when I am hungry.  I have yet to have any fast food either, which is amazing since besides work I have a very active little girl that has several activities after school so I am usually on the go most nights of the week so cooking is hard to do.

Trick or treat?? I will take the trick please..

My house has tons of candy, partly because my husband bought too much candy because he wants the leftovers and partly because my 8 year brought home a bagful herself. So my resistance has to be on high alert not to just have one piece, because it would be a gateway to eating way too much.  Wish me luck!. Things went well today other than the candy...I had a protein bar this morning for breakfast, had a salad for lunch and weight watcher meal for dinner and some Kashi GO lean cereal. for snack while waiting for trick or treaters so I would not be tempted to stray..